Hi whoever’s reading this,
been feeling really introverted the past 3 days. Even when with people my mind just starts to drift off and I feel like I have to use a lot more effort to make conversation.
Okay this part is part of an R16 mixtape where the beat just died and then I think it’s the DJ monologuing but his experiences gave me chills. Just skip to the parts where I highlighted.
(Link here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3t5z_tk5T_c)
“I fell in love with […] because it was individual, there were no teams, there were no captains, there were no… nothing too… too perfect. No style that had to be measured. It was the completely opposite of what I saw on so many sports. It was creative. And to this day, that’s what I love, that’s always kept me back to it, because it’s endless creation. That’s the aspect I love most. Through the years, you have so many experiences, you’re sponsored, you travel the world, you win contests, you do these things, and sometimes, through all the years, all the years, you lose the sight of, what… why are you doing? Sometimes, maybe you think because you want to be the best (?), or, I wanted to win 10 years of contests, and I did. And in the end, I found that, that wasn’t why I […]. And as I get older, I get less, in a sense, public, and I go back to the original reason why I loved this, to do new things, in my own way. And that’s what I love. I’ve been injured about two times, and had a bunch of s-, not a bunch, but definitely a few surgeries. And when that happens, I think, oh maybe I’m too old, I should give up, or I won this award. What does that mean? Before I got it, I thought it meant a lot. And then when I get it, it doesn’t mean anything. And that’s a realisation that’s come. And if there’s anything it’s that sometimes I can see kids, they’re so… they start this because they love it, they love the… freedom of it. It’s freedom. And it’s art. In a lot of ways. And then I see them along the way, and they start to hate what they do but for some reason they don’t know. They think it’s because of the money but they could quit and make money also… other ways. And I see it all the time. People that love it, they get what they wanted and then they hate it. And so, if there’s anything I could say to the kids, so they don’t have to go through all the years, it’s like, just remember that winning awards, or winning contests, they really truly don’t mean anything. It’s the enjoyment of doing what you want to do, all the way through. That’s the beauty – so many people actually never find their whole lives. And that’s what it’s given me. I can’t wake up. I can’t wait to wake up in the morning – to try something new. A lot of times, I can’t sleep because I can’t wait to try… something new. And how many people never really experience that feeling? Often.”
which brought me to thinking about passion and commitment and that I need some drive now more than ever. Bboying helped me focus on always improving and always trying to attain what I want. Lately, it actually doesn’t feel so much day in day out I actually feel like I’m enjoying studying, company and can’t wait to see how I’d turn out (:
p.s. hi fooc
What I do want to do now is just dance and have fun and hopefully I will make future me proud. Shan’t post any dance videos but I might post one at the end of the year just to mark my progress.
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